you dont know how i feel at all.
and then you just one shot scold me everything

what is this man?
sometimes i really feel that i cried for you for nothing.
i was afraid sth might happen btwn you two
thank god that nothing happened

i was so glad that you were fine

i was so depressed when i found that you weren't talking

now i think back and i ask myself;
FOR WHAT?

why do i feel sad for you ?
why do i feel happy for you ?

i feel that its all wasted.
i've been so emotionally drained.

i cried on sunday like mad but i had to make it seem like i was okay.
for what?
so you wouldn't worry.

i know you were upset by what happened so i didn't let u have the chance to feel worse if you see me.

i really really did.

and now you're doing this to me and i seriously don't know why.

i feel so left out, so unwanted, so hated, so extra.

its all because of you..

do you know you have hurt me?

you've hurt me before.

i still remember.
i even cried for more than an hour.

you apologised.
i forgave.

and now here you are,
making me feel so hurt over again.

why not stop this cycle?
you never spared a thought for my feelings.

so, then, why should i bother about yours?

do you know how i seriously feel?
do u understand me?

no. not at all.

i'm going to get depression and die from it.

thanks to you.

my family.

this family.
i dont feel part of one.