HAHAHA.

okay pastor lai doesn't go with lizards.

(:

alyssa doesn't go with lizards too.


maybe i'll go up and just tell him " lizard" one day.
haha. okay that's really evil.



okay whats up w the lizards!?

yesterday had MTP.

was generally okay.

yeah nothing much to update.

pray that God will give me the strength to control my anger!

well okay my emotions all these.

seriously almost blasted ppl today.
yup took some time to pray so of course in the end i didn't.
yeah so...... hope it won't happen again.




would you spare a thought for others
the world isn't all just about yourself

Undo- Rush Of Fools
I've been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying
You'll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and graceI
need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become
Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become

Maybe it's just me.
well i guess i can't really do much but pray about it.

Anyway, today's sermon really relates to me.
i'm sure it relates to many people around me as well.

by being the Children of the Light,
how are we putting across to others that we, as christians, are different and stand out from the rest?
are we doing everything for God , to glorify Him and praise Him?
when others look at us, do they see you as a christian, strong in faith, or just someone who claims to be a christian?

i really agree that everything is shown through our daily lives.
our words, thoughts and our actions - are they edifying to God?

i would say it IS common for people to speak vulgarities.
but does it mean if others are doing it, you can do it too?
and as christians, we should all the more abstain and refrain from speaking such foul language.
we are all made in the image of God.
Being a christian and speaking vulgar ;
think of what impression you would give to others?
maybe your friends would find it normal and acceptable.

think about those non-christians who are interested to know more about God, church and christianity.
wouldn't you have just given him/ her the impression that christians are like non-christians, doing the same thing?
you never know, he/she might just lose their interest.
another opportunity has just been lost.

i admit, i was really vulgar last time.
It is only by God's grace that i have changed.

but first, we have to set our minds and hearts to want to change before it can really happen.

Of course, it's never easy.
Man alone cannot achieve anything.
that is why we have God in our midst.
He will give us the strength to control ourselves,
and with His power, we'll be able to change for the better.

And with this, we must actively seek God.
He can help us guard our minds, hearts and spirit.

A good point was brought up during BS.
Why does mind always come first, followed by heart , then spirit?

the MIND.
it controls everything and can overcome emotions from the HEART.

the HEART.
it controls our emotions and feelings.

the SPIRIT.
it is how we live our lives, and is how people view us.

first we need to have that mindset that we want to change for the better.
our mind is powerful ; it CAN overcome our emotions.
and with the change in our lives, we can now truly show others that christians ARE different.

with the help from God, it can be easy for us to change.
well, nothing is impossible with God!

there are 3 things we have to do.

1. Seek God.
2. Pray.
3. Read the Bible and understand it ; by understanding, we need to EXPERIENCE it.

seems rather easy but it is not.
no matter how old you are, or how much you have gone through ;
it is only through GOD that we are able to achieve things.

let us take some time to IDENTIFY what aspects in our lives we need to change.

only by replacing worldly values with God's values can our words and thoughts be edifying.

continue praying and turn the DEVIL to LIVED.

God bless!


tag reply
emily : HAHA YES I KNOW. (: love you too!

I really like the German songs we're learning.

Holidays are really near!
hahaha.

im going to work out, mug and go out w ppl.
HAHAHA.
guess this holiday will be more meaningful than last year. (:

yup.
have to go back for choir pracs during the hols.
anyway now its some publicity!

AUSTRIAN CHOIR CONCERT

A capella Chor Villach
9 June 2007 (Sat)
7.30pm - 9.00 pm
University Cultural Center Hall, NUS.
tickets $25/- each.
free seating.
look for any cedar choir member to purchase! (:

yes we're performing so must support us okay! :D
i promise you, it'll be GREAT.

Mrs Lim JACK us today. lol.
quite the retarded ah.

yup anyway its really late and i'm so tired.
shall go off now.
BYE.

hello (:

jiarong beatrice and emily loves me alot! ha!

no i'm not being BHB. well they really do love me :D
okay NOT LESBIANS LA.

i suddenly realised that i haven't replied tags for ages.
(okay i know i'm wols don't say alrd!!)

well lessons have really been slack.

math : draw graphs, listen to mr tay. do what he says.
eng : we took like dunno how many periods just to do 1 argumentative essay. well apparently when we went to the library everybody talked instead of doing their work. ( or maybe it's just me jiarong beatrice emily hoiyan and grace.)
oh, and don't forget there's always BAHHHP. or however you spell it. you lousy turnip.
science : practicals all the way...
chinese : this judge and lawyer thing we did yesterday. well chi is really slack. do ke tang zuo ye during lessons, ying yong wen.. then no homework! hahaha.
geog : we play GAMES. like do debates and auctions all these.
hist : go through this TA. one whole period still haven't finished one question..
lit : listen to Mrs Lam talking talking.
music : well it's obviously slack. :D
art : just framing stuff, cutting out the designs. everything's pairwork this year. GREAT :D

this kind of life is like fantastic.
well no tests now.. anyway, can't expect much right? its gna be the hols soon!
must mug. all the stupid tests are squeezed tgt ( AGAIN) in the first week!

yup geog sucked today.
VK ( note : new name is vampire koh due to some vampire craze ) AP us. then yeah wasted so much time. did workbook -.-
science was FUN.
well we just dissolved copper sulphate in water and heated it and dissolved even more.

okay apparently i have NOTHING to blog about.
and i'm feeling tired ( as usual) cause its already 10+ you know. hahah.

okay.

TAG REPLIES!

SmileInYourSleep: i know its you ! hahaha.

jiarong: haha yes i know she's my buddy. so tall not like me.

joel : haha! are you sure you're not scared :P well i dont wna touch your SIX PACKS. and well apparently you are really bhb.
j: i know he's definitely racist!
charis: lol yes cannot ah. colours beautify your world. yes joel is so bhb la.
ken: i'll link you when i rmb! or even have time!
joel: haha nobody is jealous of you! (:
ken: wow so against them o.o oh that joel is different.
--unknown--: hello who are you? i'm in choir. relax! now exams are alrd over..why you wna kill yourself? life is SO precious. well i dont know, so who are you?
theCOLOURED: HAHAH. yes he is SO shuai that GIRLS go GAGA OVER HIM. i dunno? apparently tht person is UNKNOWN. haha retarded.
--unknown--: joel from MS. haha who are you lar!
keith: haha what's up w china?
j: haha he's racist of his own kind! and totally bhb.
--unknown--: haha oh man why you all talking about china people!! and jap!!
jiarong: haha thanks! :D
florence: well i don't love you, you lesbo. hahaha. go away.
jiarong: haha sure sure. ppl spent 12 bucks on you! hahah. i know you love me alot. well that's kinda obvious :P
keith: haha yup i'm okay alrd. lol thanks ah give me new name.
theCOLOURED: HELLO ! I REMEMBER YOU OKAY. HAHA. WHERE'S YOUR SISTER
ken: haha if you think it is then change it lo.
ALY : HAHAH YOU ARE SO BHB WOMAN.
cheryl (mummy): haha sorry mummy! i forgot! ):
JIA JIAN: HELLO! yup i'll relink you when i have time! yes raping ducks and hanging men. hahaha!
jiarong: haha its okay if its like shit. :P
keith: haha hey relax relax. i think its hwee chiat HAHA. or alex. or .. one of your friends la. wah still talking about girls -.-
SmileInYourSleep: haha OH MAN. whats up w you two!
keith: no who said sg girls like ang mor! hahah.
SmileInYourSleep: oh man you BHB.
keith: don't sigh. one day you'll find someone. hahaha.

OKAY BYE.

Hello. hahaha.
okay i'm like having chinese lessons now can.
so boring.
do all the li jie ce yan.
i alrd finish lo lol.
yup so i'm like stoning or something. (:

Li laoshi take over cause Wu laoshi is at china!
so long lo like 20+ days.
i am so JEALOUS.
HAHAHAH.

okay nevermind.
hmmmm yup i've got loads of stuff to do now.
gg to choreo later haha.
i hope i can choreo lo i feel so no confidence now.
hahaha.

lets see wad i have to do.......
update IPW blog
choreo
math notes
eng portfolio
science assignment a & b
banyueji
IPW research
youth cafe stuff

okay i suppose that's about it.
not alot la. :P

OKAY I SHALL GO OFF NOW.
TATA :D
will reply tags once i'm home. (:

hahaha the school's com is MORE laggy than my com.
thank God for giving me a better com.
hahah oh and MOTHER'S DAY IS OVER.
MY LOUSY SON IS SO LOUSY.


BYE.

hello i'm back after so long.
so let's blog about half the week now!

WEDNESDAY

went to NEWater plant during TOP period.
didn't expect it to be THAT fun.
well maybe it's just the atmosphere arnd me.
like jiarong and beatrice.
and yeah we took pictures.
but blogger is failing and i can't post the pics.
so maybe NEXT TIME.
or maybe never.
haha.
okay.

so. we went through the process for making NEWater.
and there's this chemical that can make ppl change sex.
HAHAHA.
well its not in the water. it's removed.
dont worry.
hahaha. but well if you want to become a guy or a girl then ....
maybe you can try. :D

FRIDAY
we went to science ctr.
watch this thing abt the HUMAN BODY.
lol.
okay so my row was the only row that was laughing like throughout the whole show.
yup then ... okay i shall not go into details.
must watch then funny la.
hahaha.

anyway its corrupted stuff so let's censor them.

then went to st nick's concert.
was quite good la.
I DIDN'T KNOW MY SIS COULD ACT THAT WELL.
HAHAHA.
okay i'm so proud of her (:

i like the dance. so sync-ed.

okay i really don't like chinese dance. like those pri sch kind.
its HILARIOUS.
and the song is disgusting.

yup then my mum couldnt take the noise.
i dont know why.
its not THAT noisy right.

okay maybe cause cedar is kind of noisy ( not because of me)
then yeah. used to it.
all the cheering and stuff.
hahaha.
that is called good school spirit!

today
i finally went for CIP.
got bitten by mosquitoes.
hahah.
okay not as bad as during p5 camp when i had like 80+ LOL.
yup i think i'll get BLACKER like someone.
but not as black.
really hot lo.
today quite slack.
then in the end left early. hahaha.
well i reached home kinda late but its okay.
then i slept lo.
yup.
okay thats abt all i got NO TIME TO BLOG ANYMORE.

TATA.
will reply tags later.
or tmr.
hahah.
long day ahead....

all i needed was your trust.

i thought _ could be trusted.
i put all my trust in _ but it turns out that i was wrong to do that.
i really regret trusting _ so much.

i feel very hurt now.
i'm really really disappointed in _.

i mean, if someone so close to you just does this kind of thing, i'm sure you'd be utterly disappointed too.
i'm no exception.
you know, i have been really patient w you.

well if you didn't realise that, i suppose its time i let you know.
i've had enough of everything.
like i said, everyone has a limit to their patience.
i'm part of everyone.
so i DO have a limit to my patience.
although i dont show attitude.
i have really really tried very hard okay.

realise i haven't been exploding in school like last year.
i could just scream/ shout in the class.
or just totally explode.
and i thank God for giving me the strength and self-control.

without Him, i really don't know how i'll be able to live to this day.

i'm really tired of all these.
physically tired.
and now i'm mentally, and emotionally tired.

will this thing ever end?

i didn't even do anything to you. why must you do something to me?
if you believe in the "an eye for an eye" thing, its fine w me.
but hello, i haven't done a thing to you.
i'm really very disappointed.
hope you'll take some time to think.

think before you do anything in future.
that is all i have to say.



thanks SQUID for reminding me of ephesians 4:26-27.

26 In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,
27 and do not give the devil a foothold.

i'll be praying for God to be w me.
thank you so much k.

i'll need some time alone.
maybe i'll emo abit but i'll try not to k.
i promise.

alynna, what is wrong with you!?!?!?!?!




just that little bit more patience will definitely do me good.
and maybe self-control.
like controlling my emotions.

guess i am just too easily affected.

sorry if i've made you affected too.

eee don't make things difficult for me lei! ):

hoho i'm like back blogging again.

let's reply tags first k?

SmileInYourSleep: i have a feeling i know who you are! hahaha. why don't you just tell me. :D
theCOLOURED: hahah i also don't know! yup GREATY. :P
((: : hello. now who are you again?? LOL. hmmm yup i know i'm really fortunate. i'll give thanks for that. thanks for the reminder! :D
joel: haha okok. are you sure you're not racist? today you were SO racist i tell u. ya lo ppl kena jacked. haha ya i also kena before!
keith: eh stop thinking about geylang la. tsk. ya lo he never give me link lol.
ken: haha i never even see you online! hmmm. okay i'll link you. IT noob? lol okay... why you hate china ppl?
jiarong: haha i TAGGED. i where got say no time. lol. i am quite free one lo :P no lor wad u. HAHAHA. that was just a random thing i found so use lor. :P
theCOLOURED: HAHA yar! it's greaty. (: hmmm yes yes i'll stay happy. (: lol! yeah those are traits of joel toh. or so he claims. :P
theCHIOBU: haha hello chiobu. i'm the most chiobu around here HAHA. kidding kidding. ppl is ugly..but adorable. PIG. *oink*
joel: hey hey you you! hahah don't so bhb la. later head explode. will die one know?? shuai ah. i'll have to reconsider. hahaha. don't insult theCHIOBU!
jiarong: hahah its QUOTED you know. it didn't come from me. nope its different. its a new msg LOL. k k k k k you FAST la. i'm WOLS can. lol. YUP I KNOW HER. she from S2. but i don't know her name can. lisa? liza? elizabeth? lol. okay nevermind. yup she went IP. alot of ppl went IP! neha belle... and alot alot alot.
theCOLOURED: haha yes of course it's exaggerated! like VERY VERY EXTREMELY.




hmm i'm really bored now.
thank you sk for your CD. lol.
okay that was random.

who wants to dance for Youth Sunday?
the sunday that youths TAKE OVER.
hahaha. lpym rocks i tell you. :P
okayokay that was random too.

see la sk influence ppl -.-

hmm i didn't take the guitar AGAIN. ):
nevermind!

happy birthday to all the May babies! (:

tata.

i shall never go back on fridays ever again... -.-

haha okay so i got motivation and i FINISHED MY MATH. HAHA.
(yes i know that was very random)

anyway my mum saw my hand and she said
"Aiyoh, why you anyhow write on your hand?"

at least she didn't see what was written.
(ahem)

okay i have NOTHING to say now.
except that i saw MISS POON.
and i'm glad i didn't get scolded or anything hahaha.
seee, she CANNOT do ANYTHING :D


JOEL TOH.
he is very very hot cute charming handsome shuai .
whatever you can use to describe him.
and girls go gaga over him.
so girls who are INTERESTED!
you can always go and look for him.
THE END.



btw everything's quoted. :D

today was GREATY! LOL
like seriously man (:
i'm not emo don't worry k. :D

i'm kind of sian now la.
ppl going to COPE FLAGS AGAIN.
like AGAIN.
idunno is who lei.

there's alot of work to do for IPW.

this is CRAZY can.



anw i feel like being CHEENA for a moment.
ppl from CHINA (ahem) you know.

wo hen xiang ni.
hahah.

okay zai jian.







TAG REPLIES!
keith: lol what lonelygirl15. i got ppl to PEI ME. haha and what lock the windows!?
cheryl(mummy): hello. yes i know. thanks. :P
joel: you are you are. i know it . hahah. theCOLOURED knows it too. YAR ppl kena jacked. haha! funright.
SmileInYourSleep: lol. hmm i still wna know who you are. just say la!
iamjiarong: haha i don't know you i don't know you.
ken: haha sure give me your link first la! lol

i have decided to post songs on my blog!
the titles in GREEN means i hosted the song.
(its actually a link lor.)
haha i'm like SO NICE CAN. :P

I Will Be Here- Steven Curtis Chapman


Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear,
I will be here.

If in the dark we lose sight of love,
Hold my hand and have no fear,
‘Cause I will be here.

I will be here when you feel like being quiet;
When you need to speak your mind, I will listen.
And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying;
Through the winning, losing, and trying, we’ll be together,
‘Cause I will be here.

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear,
I will be here.

As sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I will be here.

I will be here, you can cry on my shoulder;
When the mirror tells us we’re older, I will hold you.
And I will be here to watch you grow in beauty,
And tell you all the things you are to me;
I will be here.

I will be true to the promise I have made,
To you and to the One who gave you to me.

I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change,
Our lifetimes are made for years,
So I, I will be here.
We'll be together and I will be here.




i'll be here whenever you need me. (:

i feel so much better but somehow i think there's a part of me that's not alright.

it's hurt ; it's broken ; it's destroyed.
it's the part of me that only God can fix.

i really really cannot take this anymore you know.
it's quite enough.


i'm all alone at home feeling sooooooo helpless.
and so alone. ):

i think i'm thinking too much.
it's never a good thing to leave an emo person at home all day all alone because she will start thinking of weird, stupid, retarded things like dying and all those crap.

bye.


TAG REPLIES
joel: lol i know you're racist can.
theCOLOURED: haha don't anyhow shout pork! i bet you will diputsly go and do that. hahaha.
eunike: eh thanks ah tag as my name. you like my name alot right! yup congrats congrats. (: let's stay happy. ( supposedly.)
theCOLOURED: haha, what if i say it's you! O.O no la its not you. :P
cheryl(mummy): hello mummy.. thanks (:
ken: thanks i'll try. hmm yeah congrats for achieving your goals too.
SmileInYourSleep: hello.. yup i know God will surely strengthen me.. thanks.
j: haha i will TRY. :D all the best for your mye!
joel: yesyes i said I WILL TRY. thanks.
theCOLOURED: yupyup.. thanks for everything k. let's pray, pray and pray. (:
runningby: wahwah so long never tag. haha. hmm yes with God, everything will be okay! :P
theCOLOURED: haha nah no more hyper. EH EH. who's the pig!
keith: because they're meaningful..
natalie taichou: lol what kind of greeting is that!
SmileInYourSleep: guess i was just feeling really emo and just started thinking. okay its a bad sign that i even thought of suicide. hmmm WHO ARE YOU???







guess i shall have to stop thinking.
it's really hard for me to handle all the pressure.
i can't handle it alone.
i need YOU, and i need GOD.
i know that you'll always be there for me. thanks alot alot alot alot. (:




enough emoing.
no more thinking.
let's be happy people all over again. :D


YOU GIVE ME JOY YOU KNOW. :D

i don't know why i felt that way.

i seriously felt like killing myself.

to just die and end all my misery..............












i need you


thanks for being there for me.

i think i'm getting weaker each day.

Lord, give me your strength to carry on...

you dont know how i feel at all.
and then you just one shot scold me everything

what is this man?
sometimes i really feel that i cried for you for nothing.
i was afraid sth might happen btwn you two
thank god that nothing happened

i was so glad that you were fine

i was so depressed when i found that you weren't talking

now i think back and i ask myself;
FOR WHAT?

why do i feel sad for you ?
why do i feel happy for you ?

i feel that its all wasted.
i've been so emotionally drained.

i cried on sunday like mad but i had to make it seem like i was okay.
for what?
so you wouldn't worry.

i know you were upset by what happened so i didn't let u have the chance to feel worse if you see me.

i really really did.

and now you're doing this to me and i seriously don't know why.

i feel so left out, so unwanted, so hated, so extra.

its all because of you..

do you know you have hurt me?

you've hurt me before.

i still remember.
i even cried for more than an hour.

you apologised.
i forgave.

and now here you are,
making me feel so hurt over again.

why not stop this cycle?
you never spared a thought for my feelings.

so, then, why should i bother about yours?

do you know how i seriously feel?
do u understand me?

no. not at all.

i'm going to get depression and die from it.

thanks to you.

my family.

this family.
i dont feel part of one.

Frail- Third Day
Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken,
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seems to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide
Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken,
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...







...frail

When The Rain Comes- Third Day

When the rain comes
it seems that everyone has gone away
When the night falls
you wonder if you shouldn't find someplace
To run and hide
Escape the pain
But hiding's such a lonely thing to do

I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you 'til it goes away
When the rain comes you blame it on the things that you have done
When the storm fades
you know that rain must fallon everyone
So Rest awhile
it'll be alright
No one loves you like I do

When the rain comes, I will hold you



i'll always be here for you, like you have been there for me all this while.
CHEER UP OKAY? i don't want you to be so affected.
everything will be okay yeah? continue praying.....
i'm sure God will give you the strength to overcome all these.
i know it's really difficult for you right now but i really don't wna see anything happen to you k?
you matter alot to me. really. (:
there's always sunshine after the rain.
if not, God always leaves us a rainbow.

stay positive!
we'll face this together.
you'll always be on my mind; you're really the BEST.

One day, a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him back when he had a job. His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things and cheated him. He remembered family that had passed on. His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment and frustration.

Standing there this day, searching for answers he could not find, knowing all else had failed him, he knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed:

"Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive.
I am sad, Lord, because I cannot I don't know how. It is not fair Lord.
I didn't deserve these wrongs that were done against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as way is Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I don't know how to forgive. My anger is so deep Lord, I fear I may not hear you, but I pray that you teach me to do this one thing I cannot do - teach me to forgive.”

As he knelt there in the quiet shade of that old oak tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He opened his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something red on his shirt He could not turn to see what it was because where the oak tree had been was a large square piece of wood in the ground. He raised his head and saw two feet held to the wood with a large spike through them. He raised his head more, and tears came to his eyes as he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in His hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep thorns sunk into His head. Finally he saw the suffering and pain on His precious face. As their eyes met, the man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak.
“Have you ever told a lie?" He asked.
The man answered - "Yes, Lord.”
"Have you ever been given too much change and kept it?”
The man answered - "Yes, Lord." And the man sobbed more and more.
“Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't yours?" Jesus asked.
And the man answered, "Yes, Lord."
“Have you ever sworn, using my Father's name in vain?”
The man, crying now, answered, "Yes, Lord.”

As Jesus asked many more times, "Have you ever…?" The man's crying became uncontrollable, for he could only answer - "Yes, Lord." Then Jesus turned His head from one side to the other, and the man felt something fall on his other shoulder. He looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he looked back up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there was a look of love the man had never seen or known before.

Jesus said, "I didn't deserve this either, but I forgive you."

It may be hard to see how you're going to get through something, but when you look back in life, you realize how true this statement is. Read the following first line slowly and let it sink in.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Lord I love You and I need You, come into my heart, today. For without You I can do nothing. When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you!

Slowly - Avalon
Maybe it's been too long for me
Maybe I'm too far gone
I'm not looking for sympathy
But I know something's gotta be wrong

Remind me now what it means to kneel
Get me out of the way
I'm learning still that your love is real
You've proven it's not a charade
I don't know how much I can take
Mighty fences are slipping away

You slowly break me down
You slowly turn me around
I'm learning how to liveI'm learning how to love
Now that You're here slowly showing me how

How do You say the things You say?
Do You really think I can change?
You love me with so much abandon
And You move in me with such grace
I am finally coming awake
Mighty fences are fading away

You slowly break me down
You slowly turn me around
I'm learning how to live
I'm learning how to love
Now that You're here slowly showing me

What I would be if I never let you in
What I would be if I am giving up my skin
What I would be if I let You in
You slowly break me down
You slowly turn me around
You slowly break me down
You slowly turn me around
I'm learning how to live
I'm learning how to love
Now that You're here slowly showing me how