5 more papers to freedom. haha.

yeahman. :D

gbye.

For one, i did NOT in any point say i'm holy.

who am i to say that i am even one bit of holy? am i not human like all of you, one so imperfect?
I do know that i have my flaws, my bad points, and that i was never perfect, am not perfect, and never will be perfect. For the only one who is truly perfect and holy is God.

Who are we to compare ourselves to God, even though we are all created in His image?

I know i did use vulgarities before. who hasn't? I'm sure everyone has, its just the intensity and extent in which they use vulgarities.

I was really really vulgar in the past. Especially p6 and sec 1. yes i do admit. But God has really changed me, and i'm no more the usual vulgar person you once knew me to be.
(you'll know what i mean if you read my old blog before.)

Looking back and reading those posts, honestly, i was very very shocked that i was even like that.

A Christian, baptised in God's name, so vulgar? Using profanities all day long? Scolding others everyday?

This is NOT Christ-like at all.
In the past, i was childish, i was immature.
I didn't bother even though i was using all those vulgarities.
My parents scolded me for being so vulgar on my blog.
I didn't care, I thought i was right and i got really mad at them.

I just deleted the old blog to make them happy and stop nagging at me / scolding me.
But now i truly understand what they were trying to tell me;
and what God expects of us as Christians.

Because of everyone's sinful nature, and due to all the temptations in the world, it is common for people to use vulgarities. even christians.
But i don't say that christians are totally perfect and do not use vulgarities at all.
Surely there are times where you hear christians using profanities, no?

But my point is, Christians SHOULD have better control of their speech, because God has given them the strength to. If not, at least pray and ask for His forgiveness if you ever used vulgarities. The Lord WILL forgive you. And remember, repentance is the only way to heaven.

I still think christians should be shooting their mouths off, and every word that comes out is vulgarities. But i'm saying, at least try to refrain from using these words.

I'm NOT trying to make everyone be like me. Who ACTUALLY wants to be like me, right?

I can be BHB and saying all those egoistic stuff about myself. you don't have to take them seriously. why not just laugh it off? i'm just kidding about all these things.
When i say i'm the most chio person ever, i don't mean it. for i know i am not.
If i say that i'm the best, i don't mean it. i know i am not. for there are always others who are better than me.
I have never once thought that i was way better than others, and that everyone looked up to me, respected me, and i'm everyone's idol.

NO.
i have NEVER said that or even thought of things this way. Although when i'm being BHB you can link it to me not being humble, it's absolutely fine with me.
Anyway,
If you don't like me being bhb, then why not just shut off when i'm being bhb? If you can't take jokes unlike the others, it's also fine with me, because i know everyone is different.

(I'm also not saying that it is wrong for you to voice your opinion.)


Anyway, why did i delete the tags?

1. i am NOT a coward. look who's the real coward here right?
Why do you guys tag as passer-by instead of using your own name?
I see no point in trying to hide your identity.
You want to scold me, it is fine with me. I won't hurl abuse at you. I won't hang pig heads at your doors. I won't come after you. PUT YOUR NAME LA!

Simply put, I deleted the tags because i thought they were really ruining my tagboard.
After all, i HAVE the right to do whatever i want with the tags, because it IS my tagboard.
and this is MY blog.

The tagboard was set up for my true friends to leave messages, not for you guys to come and scold me. Excuse me, i did NOT even scold you (or Charis). So why on earth are you scolding me????

You tell me to not scold Charis. I didn't scold her.
I didn't scold you. So why are you scolding me??
Besides, what has all these got to do with you?

Shouldn't you be leading by examples?
Isn't this so hypocritical?
You, on one hand telling me not to scold your friend,
while on the other hand you yourself are scolding me??

Do YOU think that if many of you come up to my blog and scold me i'd really fear you?
I'll be affected??
NO!

Do you see me getting my friends to tag on Charis's blog and scolding her? NO.
I do NOT wish to involve any other people here for goodness sake.

It's not that i'm being stubborn here mind you.
But so what if you win this "quarrel"? you have not really won.
Who's the one with real strength??
Is it you, because you use such language against me?
NO! Definitely NOT.

Why do i not leave those tags there?
In the same way if you see rubbish in your home do you pick it up and throw it away?
Or do you leave it there till it rots, disintegrates, accumulates and makes your home become a rubbish dump? i'm sure you wouldn't do that.
In the same way, i'm getting rid of all these rubbish.

I also didn't say i rule the world.
If i did, do you think this would be happening? Obviously not.
If i was this kind of unruly people, you'll be the first to die.
Seriously. Or maybe you wouldn't even exist in the first place.

But! God is the Ruler yet.
i have no say in this.



Whatever it is, all of you go away. Or if, in any case you want to tag, do leave your name.

I'll find time to ENTERTAIN you.

P/S: THINK before you tag again.
THINK of what you want to tag.
THINK if you have points to support yourself.









joel: Okay, oh by the way, thank you. (:

Buddy: Lol! oh well, thanks too (:

manda: Hello (: jia you for singing! Last prac already!

SHARMAINE: haha long story, anyway thanks dear, and all the best for your eoys too (: jia you ah!

English paper was quite okay ! relatively easy hahaha. (:

anyway, yeah proposal format is wrong! urghhhhh.

hmmm i shouldn't be online. but anyway.

Keith ! remind me to help you find out who she is la if not i'll forget. haha.

Buddy! cheer up ah. :D

Beatbeat! i'm not ALI okay!

alibaba and s is getting better. like yeah. great. (:
but some people are as bad. oh well.

runningby: lol, okay, thanks.

daryl: haha yours isn't much better? okayokay, 2 different things. haha.

keith: haha okay (: LOL ee what! hahaha. dont be religionist!

runningby: haha got it got it. (:

JEAN: haha you better! i don't care man. haha. love you mamaya! <3

passerby: haha who are you? anyway it still depends on each individual, but if nothing changes i think it will remain this way if not, it will get worse. well who knows right? (:

joel: haha is that like sarcasm, a compliment, or an insult? lol. anyway yes i'm a great lawyer to be right. :D i'm sure you know. hahaha. oh well like i say, see how it goes :D

JEAN: yeaaa very true. hmmm anyway what you plan to do? keep me updated okay, while i continue the love letter. (:

liwenn: haha hello! (: of course i'm nice liwenn. dunno why you keep saying i'm mean. hahaha. now you know! lol don't need la. haha. oh well, same to you! haha jia you jia you <3






haha i suddenly love liwenn alot o.o

LOL

why am i having this feeling again ):



i feel like slapping people and shooting people (ohmy so violent, but actually i won't do that la)

irritating lor!! very irritating can.

super duper chao ji irritating la. aiyoh.

this is an understatement but nevermind.


anyway i still don't get WHY we don't have the right to do certain stuff when actually we were previously told that we had the right to.















rubbishhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

urgh. eng paper tomorrow. scared la. oh man i haven't been feeling this pressure for so long.













tell me i'll be strong

I think that since everybody has access to my blog and they all can see my tagboard,
i'll make things easier for ME and i'll just blog it out.
And i suppose many people are already aware that i am having problems with Charis.

Well firstly i shall just put up what i tagged on her blog?
I am not ashamed of myself, i didn't use vulgar whatsoever, and i think there's nothing wrong with me saying all these.

well. here it is. ( i rearranged it.)

27 Aug 07, 05:41
alynna: okay whatever, i dont know if you will even see this BUT i really have to say this.
27 Aug 07, 05:42
alynna: to not be so direct, kindly be conscious of your photo-taking/camwhoring, and do keep in mind that you're.. a christian.
27 Aug 07, 05:43
alynna: i'm sure you know that your body is a temple of God. that's all i have to say but if you still don't get it, then, well, i'm sure God will do something about this.
27 Aug 07, 05:45
alynna: i don't exactly care if you'll be unhappy when you see this, but its just for your own good. trust me. you ARE going to attract the wrong kind of attention. okay, maybe others ARE doing it too but it
27 Aug 07, 05:46
alynna: doesn't mean you have to do it. i'm sure you're very well aware of this charis. but then again if you don't want to change? listen? then its entirely up to you. i'm not God, i won't and cannot force
27 Aug 07, 05:46
alynna: you. so. tata.


You may say i'm nosey and it's none of my business. However i really feel that because you, being a christian, we are actually sisters in Christ.
And of course if my fellow sister in Christ is doing something i think that she should not be doing, or at least i feel that she should not be doing this, i will definitely tell her and try my best to help her. But in the end the decision is still in her hands. Whether she listens or not, is entirely up to her. Because the one who has absolute control over her life is not me, but rather, God, and herself. Who am i in comparison to God?
He is the one who created you and gave you life to let you enter this world. Is this how you should be living your life? Is this how HE wants you to be living your life?
I know and i believe that God's purpose will be fulfilled. It is only a matter of when. Well, you always hear: Slowly, but SURELY.

Charis. About your friendster and photo-taking, i have seen them a long time ago. I've asked around, my bible study youth leader etc and they all did tell me that i should talk to you.
I've actually long wanted to tell you but for some period of time i somehow decided not to. So well, i left this problem on the shelf. but then again i went to your friendster and i didn't really see a change. i decided not to tell you again. This happened many times i can tell you. But on 27 August ( as you can see the date of my tag) i just decided to tell you.
I didn't scold you. I didn't critisize you. I didn't judge you.
I just told you what i thought and how i felt in a nice tone, and i approached it with an attitude that you were my really close friend.

To tell you honestly when i saw that you were doing this, and i read your blog posts, and the language you used.. I admit i was once vulgar. I did stupid things. But now God has changed me. But you weren't like that. But why have you changed to become as such?
I was thinking, i don't want to be your friend anymore. i don't know you at all. Many times i regret even knowing you. Why is this so? I agree too that it is a pity that we just fall out like that after a considerably long time of being such good friends.

I really treasured the fact that God has brought you into my life, because whenever i talk to you about my problems you'll be able to comfort me, with the help of God's word. When i used vulgarities you told me not to. I really appreciate the fact that in the midst of a non-christian school, i could actually find a good friend- a christian at that whom i can share my problems with and she is actually.. a good influence. You did create an impact in my life. And i really had a good impression of you.

But this thing alone has destroyed everything. In fact it is not just one thing. I know we have fallen out many times, but truthfully i do not remember the cause. But this is one thing that i cannot ever forget.

To me it is terribly shocking to see a christian taking such photos in these suggestive postures, poses and these kind of shabby dressing. And for your information, i did NOT say that you were naked. and of course, i can clearly see that you were actually dressed.

But the main point is, what are you wearing??? In those pictures, they are so revealing, and so.. little/minimal. Not once did i mention that you were NAKED. If you really were naked, i would be so utterly disappointed and not even bother telling you all this.

My point in telling you/ tagging on your blog is just to tell you how i feel and maybe it might wake you up and get you to come to your senses. I knew you would be unhappy with what i said. Well since you treat it as criticism, i would say that it is constructive criticism.

I could very well just continue/be sarcastic to you like going, " oh so sexy ! ssss sizzling hot."

And btw, you said you know your limits. i really doubt so though. If not, your limits must be really.... i also don't know how i can describe it.

Anyway i don't see the point of you getting pissed at me for no rhyme or reason. But think about it, would i be pissed at you as well???? Seriously here i am trying to help you and there you are going i'm pissed at you. urgh, fine if this is what i get for helping you then i would very much rather not help you at all??? It's really tiring for me do you know. Its so emotionally draining and physically draining. I am NOT exaggerating for goodness sake. I suppose its just because you're being the usual and taking others for granted. Fine with me. The world's full of such people.

I've come to realise that i've been rather stupid and i have really been too nice to you. (i'm not being bhb here mind you) Seriously, think about it. You have been taking advantage of me time and again, no?

And why bother to act unfriendly? if you really want to be unfriendly towards me its absolutely fine as well, because i know very well what i'm doing- and that i'm daoing you. i don't know why but i know that i am pretending that i don't see you at all.
You've become a bad influence. come on.

oh btw, i saw new pictures?? what kind of image are you portraying as a christian?
Are you even being Christ-like? I don't sense any christian values in you. all i see is hypocrisy and whatevernots. then again, what's up with the vulgarities? you can just say that you weren't naked. must you say you weren't bloody naked? i see no point in adding in that word. Its not even like some good vocab to add to your sentence to make it more high class and make you seem smarter and have a good hold of your English language.

Well once again I reiterate that i am NOT lecturing you. and i'm not hiding anything from my parents. they do know what's going on. Please find out what is going on before you say anything. it causes misunderstandings.

Oh in case you didn't know, when you cut yourself ( according to you its... in other terms.. for experimental purposes???) i wrote you a letter. But seeing we were not exactly on good terms i decided not to give it you because i actually feared it would make everything worse. But i guess.. i don't know why, but it doesn't matter to me anymore.

But WHATEVER IT IS, i know that God will do something so yea i'm leaving it to you and to him.

p/s: speaking about patching up???? We'll see how it goes? oh well you can always tell me why you acted unfriendly, even if we dont get to patch up.

p/p/s : Tuck in your shirt( at least your choir tee) because as a senior you are supposed to set good examples for your juniors. and kindly refrain from talking too much as well.
you might say i'm in no position to tell you all this. fine if you don't want to listen. but tell me whats so difficult about tucking in your shirt? it doesnt even look nice when it's tucked out.
Anyway according to Wan Ping and Denyse, its just listening and helping one another out as peers, if not leaders or seniors or juniors. so i have all the right to tell you to do so.

goodbye.

oh man, i wasted so much time slacking away today.
crap.
oh and there's this stupid idiot indian guy -.-

so suey, but nevermind la. oh well....

i shall continue doing my work.

oh, thank you jiarong for the necklace! (:

gbye! (:

do support cedar choir! hahahaha.
that's all i have to say.

and i dont know why but i think going online is such a waste of time now.
but oh wellllll.

bye.


don't miss me :D
even though i know you would.... hahahaha.

ohhh, i'm back blogging again! ahahahaha. oh well the whole world missed me I KNOW. :D

anyway, it's back to school again tomorrow!
feeling sian now, but anyway, i am very extremely sure that somebody, just SOMEBODY, will come and tell me why sian? school is FUN!
hahaha. oh well,...

i know i'll enjoy the "first" day of school in the end, just like i have enjoyed it.. the past 8 years of my life.

and now my life just gets better and better, with so many new and good things happening.
and of course, it's even better because i have God inside of me. (:

oh welll.
i realised that not many people attended church today, i wonder why..
but anyway, Zhi Wei was SUPER enthu today! haha! (:

Singing was great again. hahaha. finally something my BS group is involved in, its showing improvement ! like really a whole lot of improvement. oh well jia you jia you.
remember Uncle Richard's sermon, we as servants must serve our Master FAITHFULLY!
hahaha. let's give our best okay? :D

i've been stuck on Over My Head by Brian Littrell for so long!
it's so nice i tell you. hahaha. MUST LISTEN!!!

i have decided to post it up on my blog. soon. when i have time okay. hahaha.

anyway, have been down with throat infection? cough? fever? headaches? cramps? for quite a few days. i remember okay, i had fever like 38.4 degrees 5am in the morning on.. thursday?
okay i wont say its extremely high until nobody got before but FIVE AM!
and i am actually awake. its holidays, you know.
hahaha. oh well actual reason was cause i couldn't sleep. T.T

LOL oh using that face, i am suddenly reminded of, well, T.T. DURAI!
the golden turban/toiletbowl/sink/tap/peanut whatever NOTS, he is just everything gold one.
hahaha. oh well see the resemblence, the face and the name. ahahaha.

okay enough crapping.
i hope i get well soon. its a killer man.
and suddenly i talked to my parents and my voice changed. ahaha.
then they were like,
mum; "aiyo your voice is getting WORSE!"
dad; "yeah, better go see doctor ah, you look very sick."
me; "nono i dont needddd..."
dad; "HUH??"
me; "I say dont need"
dad; "huh what you say? i cannot hear you."
me; "I SAY DONT NEED."
mum; " aiya better go la let's go kovan." (my nicest doctor so far is in kovan! recommended by beatbeat!)
dad; "she say she dont want la"
me; "no, no no dont need! i dont need la."

so off we went......

see, i say so loud also cannot hear.
oh well i realised i have been talking really softly recently, but aiya, i also cant talk loud!
not my fault right....
... somebody said i was talking to ants.
hahahahaha.

oh shucks, my voice is terribly horrible now, i want to know how it feels like to lose my voice! AHAHAHA. i think its quite cool eh, i must try one day! hahahahahaha.

and, somebody totally put me off today.
but its okay, i shall not waste my time being angry, right?
we have more PRODUCTIVE things to do like study/revise/mug until siao.

anyway can i still pon school tomorrow?
hahah
I WANT TO LOSE MY VOICE TOMORROW! LOL

oh well.
i decided to stop blogging alrd. bye!
happy schooling.

oh hello, (:

buddy has got a nice story LOL.
hahahah ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh, anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAYA (:
YOU'RE LOVED. HEHEHE.
MUACKZSXZSXZSX AHAHAHA.

<3,>

I feel like being random and posting something. hahaha.
so don't complain i didn't update. well, I DID. :D
i mean, I AM. UPDATING.

Number ONE.
TAY SWEE KIAT!
I AM NOT A STUDY FREAK.


Number TWO.
2C people, if you are supportive of Mr Tay and Cedar, donate money donate money donate money donate money!! :D

you're not obliged to, but if you are willing to just part with a few bucks.. it does make a difference even if its one cent.
every cent counts you know. (:

p/s those who are interested can just donate too! hahaha.

its better to give than to take, afterall, right? :D

Number THREE.
i don't exactly like people who steal people's ideas. and present them without you know, the original.. person who came up with it.
you're such a total put-off man.

Number FOUR.
I watched Ratatouille yesterday and my mum said that after everyone watches it they will be psychoed to love rats and think that rats can cook.
lol.

It's quite okay la, but i won't say its VERY funny, like some people said it was.
its just relatively funny. and. kind of amusing...
and very nonsensical.

Number FIVE.
i am NOT a turban (ahemahemahem!!!)
and i DONT have a turban.
and even if i have/will have one, it won't be smelly. heehee.

Number SIX.
My parents keep forcing me to go out nowadays i don't know why,
and its always when i'm going to do my work/ just finished my work/ in the i feel like doing work mood. uhhhh.

so can i don't go out tonight please? :D
i'll give you my sweeeeetest smile.

Number SEVEN.
i shall go self-study Geog now!
Before Mrs Koh teaches. hahaha.

Number EIGHT.
apparently this is the first time in the 14 years of my life that i've finished ALL my holiday homework by the first day of the holiday. LOL.
usually by the last day i still have some undone. lol oh welllll.

i finished 2 math papers today!
and i'm going to do more studying yay.

Number NINE.
Kindly well, don't ask me to go online unless there's important stuff to be done! (:
its a terrible terrible temptation you know, and i'm going to only go online once or twice a week.
like yeaaaa or maybe not at all. hahaha.
oh well DON'T MISS ME OKAY OKAY OKAY! (:

(i know buddy would. :D)

Number TEN.
I love FM Static, Plain White T's, Lifehouse and The Fray.
zomgz they are loveeeeeeeelyyy.
go listen okay okay! (:


Number ELEVEN.
Sec 2 BS: Jia you for the singing! you all can do it okay (:
C'mon give more support, sing from your diapragm! heehee.
also not pain right, not like me i'm playing guitar you know! haha.
nevermind, continue to strive harder and give your best for the Lord!

xoxo.

Number TWELVE.
It has been raining alot and you know, my room is kind of wet ~~

i'm thinking of Emily's mother.. who once sent her a message..

"its raining, don't forget your umbrella! ella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh."
HAHAH. so cute right! (:

although rihanna is terribly horribly vegetably disgusting!
and not pretty at all.

i have a .. current craze... on..
You and Me by Lifehouse! (:

i bet its like at least the 100th time i'm listening to it. ahahaha.

lovely, and i'm going to play it on my guitar forever and ever until i get it right. ahahaha.
but not for now, my fingers totally hurt.

(see la all your fault) umm to no apparent person. :D